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Monday, August 24, 2015

MEETING IN THE RABBIT HOLE by Peno Hardesty



the depression always arrives in October--no specific date just in October---I startled myself--since this is only august--as I found myself turning into a familiar parking lot---the one with the hair salon and thrift store next to the fake pizza place near the health food store---no advertisement on the door---just the buzzer-- I buzzed---it opened---I walked in ---"you too peno?"

ok so it is not really depression--more like anxiety--but not like the panic attacks===-sort of--- it is---it is---it is above my pay scale---can you help?
talk to me peno

I used to be ok--alright I was never ok but I was ok----not so much anymore----I can no longer deal with all the negativity---it has become physical-when I am around all the negativity i feel as though I have no control-I cannot eat---barely drink---feel weak and......--i went to the doctor and he said -the blood work was ok told me to drink protein shakes---and get a job where I am not working with the public---then he laughed and said I need to keep up therapy and trust my instincts---he did not even mention my smoking
can you come back next week

i guess

I am having the same experiences and so are many others---I need to consult---and then maybe we can all help each other-----

somehow when I left I felt better----

we are not alone----we are not alone and because of that we are blessed

pop tarts and chocolate help................................

many blessings to all



2 comments:

  1. Just takes my breath away. Peno, your writing is extraordinary.

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  2. Dear Peno, a humbling touch and the grace of a dancer in writ.. a gift.
    Thank you

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