We all have families; some people like theirs and some people
don’t. Personally, I wouldn't walk
across the street to turn the hose on most of my blood relatives if they were
on fire. That is a hard saying, I know,
but true none the less. That doesn't mean
that I don’t have a family – I do, a family of choice that I love dearly.
It is difficult to ascertain after 6 ½ decades of life
exactly what permanently polluted and soiled the familial love that society maintains
we owe our kin. In the final analysis,
it doesn't really matter. Suffice it to
say that there is a way in which health, even survival, depends upon not
exposing oneself to the nightmares of the past in the persona of individual family
members.
I am not given to the slop of sentimentality or what is
commonly bleated about as forgiveness. I
find it similar to eating too much chocolate or sitting too long in the cloying
scent of the wild honeysuckle. Sooner or
later that which was once pleasantly sweet becomes oppressively sickening. I am, however, given to a negative turn of mind – a
kind of electron psychology. Accordingly,
I see well in the dark and take no responsibility for people who don’t.
As a devout believer in the Great Goddess and a respecter of
the Cosmic Laws of Karma, my single most important duty to others is to never
obstruct their path nor allow them to obstruct mine. It is therefore possible for me to reinvent
my life, permanently letting go of the people who no longer encourage my
spiritual growth and evolution.
In more mundane terms those that cause me pain, serving to
limit my vision or reinforce destructive ideations that I have worked hard to
overcome are not welcome in my life. To
allow them to stay, to solicit or encourage a relationship with such people,
blood or no, is not good for their Karma or mine.
This I believe is Crone wisdom. To paraphrase the old rock and roll song, if
you believe in forever then THIS life is just a one night stand. If souls are meant to come together
throughout eternity, it matters little what physical incarnation one sees again
this go around.
Aanii
